There are days when we just sit back and reflect. Thinking of where a person came from, from hand me down clothes to a bowl of soup, from our father or mother giving grace at the table before each meal. Or the days after dinner, mother would read a story from the Daily Bread before we could rush out the door to play, and or who is going to wash the dishes.
We spend many years weaving a tapestry in life, something to leave for our family and friends, and then sometimes it’s like a ball of yarn that falls from your grandmothers lap and it unravels right in front of you and you have to start all over again.
We reflect on our younger years, days of joy and days of sadness, days of having many problems, reflecting how a person wishes he could get a re-do in some of life’s choices.
Reflecting growing up in a small town where you did not have to be afraid, and walking to one end of town and back again. Playing late in the summer evenings, picking bottles from ditches hoping to make a little money to buy something from the local store.
Reflecting on where you have traveled to and wondering how did a person do all of that. Raising a family that respects you and knowing they had a good life.
And now a person sits in wonder, understanding each day that passes, you just can’t do the things you used to. Feeling defeated at times, mentally and physically.
Trying to stay positive and understand that this is how life is, not about the money any longer, not about the material things in life, but trying to make yourself understand that what today is bringing is what was suppose to happen.
Putting your trust in God and reminding yourself that this is what was meant to be. We are here now for a reason even though you wake up every morning thinking “why am I here”, and telling yourself you are here because this is God’s plan”.
So we struggle each day with the questions about our life and continue to remind ourselves that God has a plan for each one of us.
Another day almost ends and the only answer I know right now is that “I am here as part of Gods plan for me”. And that is what keeps me here in this world, having a family I can talk to, wife who is my BEST FRIEND and who cares and understands, a brother who listens with care even though he doesn’t have to, these things also keeps me here.
The day I can’t answer that question will be my last days here and my tapestry will be finished to pass on.
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